I would never actually pull an eternal sunshine, but if there was a way to take back 3 years of my life - say a re-do button - I’d probably do it.
To live 3 years without her or without them would be…who knows. But I know what it wouldn’t feel like now. I wouldn’t have lost all of my friends. I wouldn’t have lost my best friend, my “boyfriend”, and all my other friends to someone who had no idea what they were taking. I wouldn’t have had this huge, gaping hole in my heart. I wouldn’t want to cry every.single.time. I listen to any of those songs. I wouldn’t miss them. And that…that would be beautiful. It would be eternal sunshine.
“if I could do it over again,” she wrote, “I wouldn’t break your heart, but I would miss you.”
